[cw: child abuse in #3, non-explicit]
1. current christians on their past: “We subscribed to the basic beliefs of the New Age: We are gods, and we create our own reality.” (source; also, “then we became christian and destroyed our meditation materials” ahaha)
(man, i wish that was what new age meant.)
2. john bunyan, author of pilgrim’s progress? suffered from scrupulosity.
(hellaaaaaaaaaaaa. guess who called that their favorite book for years? -yours truly)
3. focus on the family, founded by dobson, author of dare to discipline 1977 and the strong-willed child 1992 (one guess what those are about), was chief religious advisor to george w. bush.
(quote, about babies crying: “perhaps this tendency to self-will is the essence of ‘original sin'” aaaaaaAAAA)
4. i swear i’m going to murder the inability to search “secular scrupulosity” or even “secular moral scrupulosity” without finding articles with a single throwaway line about those weird non-christians with ocd about indirectly harming people who might theoretically exist (or maaaaybe a paragraph)
(slowly translating the book i’ve been lent, transposing “church” to “(social justice) community” and “sin” to “bad” or “oppressive”…it’s damn slow work, and it’s hard as hell to be careful not to like. end up saying, “if you feel bad about your privilege, maybe it’s ocd and you should get over it!” argh…..)
((bonus: finally tried “atheist scrupulosity” and got a promising lead!))
5. i think “spiritual abuse” tends to lead to please-stay-christian-god-loves-you results, and “religious trauma” tends to lead to all-religion-is-brainwashing-especially-if-you-were-a-kid results. both lead to “most unrecognized misunderstood disbelieved kind of abuse” bahhhhh.
(where’s my careful acknowledgment and holding of allll the things?)
boop boop time to go visit the parents and root through their bookcases for any markers of their childrearing approach and religious alignments other than “conservative evangelist christian.”