dis jointed

meat and human and body.  a love for gore, a squick for words.

being unreal

And if I were to type like this?
Well.
Aside from coming across like a pretentious try-hard, I’d be tempting more than one ghost.

belief (again)

been way too scrambled to put together an ace/christianity zine contribution, but had a like, *Bing* yesterday of ~categories

1. things i find comforting to believe, and (so therefore?) do
2. things i would find comforting to believe, if only i could, but i don’t/can’t
3. things i find discouraging to believe, and (so therefore?) don’t
4. things i find discouraging to believe, yet do anyway (and perhaps would like not to?)

[suicide talk]

writeable

as i’m thinking about writing fiction again, i’m noticing how…not implausible, but un-writeable, certain things feel.

things i’d very much like to see written (or have happen), but cannot possibly seem to construct myself.

namely, at the moment, an arcflux character synching up with another character, so that yeses and noes and desires largely match and mismatches are no big deal.

…when ya fluctuate between repulsion-how-did-i-ever and desire-how-did-i-ever-not, and the latter comes with wanting to be desired (but the former sometimes means feeling dysphoric about being desired)

i cannot even write fix-it fiction.

and i hate that.

inertia

i am so sick of sliding and watching inertia make decisions for me

On “Physically Non/Human”

Or:  How “P-Shifting,” “Biological Otherkin,” “Genetic Otherkin,” and “Physically Nonhuman” All Mean Different Things

[Adapted from my original Masterpost here, which discusses glitchkin/conceptkin and causation/origin in more depth.  Cross-posted to tumblr here.]

Cor’s Big Nonhuman/Otherkin Post

Hokay.  Honestly, from the state of my tumblr, we knew this was coming.  Herein, I attempt to consolidate and elaborate.  This post is a mix of personal and political, as ever.

[moving GIFs interspersed below the cut]

eyyy e-reader luck

guess who opened up cos e-reader and found the very story about ai sexbot consciousness and self-defense?

space

and portability, and the body as micro-environment

on being arcflux

While I can’t directly respond to the call for more sharing on the subject of sex-favorable asexuality, Talia’s post reminded me that I don’t think I’ve seen many essay-style posts on personal experiences of being arcflux, at least not lately, so that’s what this’ll be.  My goals here: a handy post for linking if I […]

https://theacetheist.wordpress.com/2015/10/09/on-being-arcflux/

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